Do you feel stuck making dinner EVERY night like me?
As in–wow, I used to BE someone who WENT places. Now I drive 8k miles a year! I don’t even know myself anymore.
I was making gnocchi for dinner and was transported to Interlochen, Switzerland, about 15 years ago. In the snow-capped, idyllic resort town, I tasted creamy gnocchi for the first time. The table was covered in white linen, romance and empty bottles of San Pellegrino (that’s water, not wine).
Delectable is the word.
Now, I stood on my gooey kitchen floor with my leftover baby pooch touching the counter, feeling SO restless.
“I never go anywhere anymore…” my mind wandered off. Then, I continued, “I also used to be thinner, adventurous…”
And it’s usually at one of these times that I see a reference to Wanderlust. That word just irks me.
Why? Because I have it.
Wanderlust–the insatiable desire to BE somewhere other than the place that I actually AM.
I must admit my mistakes. In college, I went anywhere I could go. And I cried, SO MUCH. One example–I lived in Paris for a semester and it was the loneliest time of my life.
I wanted to escape my life; all I did was lose life-giving connections to people.
After college, I got a teaching job. I worked hard and stayed put for a WHOLE year. In the summer, I backpacked in Europe.
That trip was amazing. What changed?
I had roots. I had worked hard, invested in people, and when I traveled, I was simply taking a break from what really mattered to me.
One of my favorite trips was a week tour of French Polynesia, just me and my thrifted backpack. The day before I flew there, I submitted my MA thesis. My brain had been through a Vitamix. Tahiti was a divine reward for my intense work.
Ironically, while alone in Tahiti, I decided I didn’t want to be alone. When I came home, I got serious about my boyfriend, whom I married six months later. And he gave me my two gorgeous babies!
The work and routine of caring for babies can be unrelenting and boring; however, I’m building my biggest community yet.
It’s called a family. No, I would not trade My People for more travel.
The fact is–the attractiveness of Wanderlust is a myth. Being somewhere else won’t be better.
I’m not saying don’t dream and don’t travel.
“Wherever you are, be all there.” – Jim Elliott